Sick and tired

I'm tired.... last night of a 120hr payperiod. I've got 1 day off and then back for 3 more night shifts. I miss my little girl, I work so much I only get to see her a few hrs a day. Although I see her everyday I'm scared one day she'll hate me for not being there when she was little. I want to work less but thats just not realistic right now, I feel like I'm missing out on the fun times, in a couple years she will be in school. I hate that my ex gets to enjoy her growing up while I work so fucking much. I deserve to be with her too, I deserve to see her wake up in the mornings, not just be able to put her to sleep when I don't work. The more I think about the situation the more I realize its bullshit. He's going to have to accept the circumstances and thats that... he wants to get lawyers involved.... bring it on.