Wordless Wednesday

Amys baby shower!

This past saturday was one of my greatest friends Amy's baby shower. What would a baby shower be without games... of course EJ and I won the game guess the smashed candy bar in the baby diaper. Although I almost puked at the site (yes I am a nurse and deal with much more disgusting things) I don't know why the look of the chocolate in the diaper made me extremely nauseated lol. It was hilarious to watch EJ put it up to her nose and smell it though! The cake was awesome, Lucy's cakes are legendary in San Antonio. We did miss Meg and Tiff, when we all get together there is always trouble! Evey is excited to see aunt Tiffie when she comes to visit for Thanksgiving! I have a feeling miss Kaitlyn will make an early appearance! I can't wait to meet miss Kaitlyn.

Amy (+Kaitlyn) and I at the baby shower

9 days late.... oops

My little princess, she was snow white for halloween. She HAD to have this dress. I was thinking tinkerbell but she disagreed and would not have anything but the snow white dress. The funny thing is that she's never even seen snow white! lol. We went to my brothers neighborhood, I got to go in late to work that night so I could go trick or treating with her.

First day of dance class!

My little angel is getting so big! She started dance class today, she is taking ballet/tap. Evey had a blast and she did so well! Of course every parent thinks that their child is the cutest and best dancer out there and well.... I'm just like every other parent! The adults have to wait outside and watch from the window so we don't distract the kids. Evey LOVES her tap shoes, she wants to wear them all the time.

My little ballerina

Waiting to go into her first dance class!

I can't believe she's 3!

Sick and tired

I'm tired.... last night of a 120hr payperiod. I've got 1 day off and then back for 3 more night shifts. I miss my little girl, I work so much I only get to see her a few hrs a day. Although I see her everyday I'm scared one day she'll hate me for not being there when she was little. I want to work less but thats just not realistic right now, I feel like I'm missing out on the fun times, in a couple years she will be in school. I hate that my ex gets to enjoy her growing up while I work so fucking much. I deserve to be with her too, I deserve to see her wake up in the mornings, not just be able to put her to sleep when I don't work. The more I think about the situation the more I realize its bullshit. He's going to have to accept the circumstances and thats that... he wants to get lawyers involved.... bring it on.

My brother

My brother Elliot brought my niece and nephew over to visit yesterday! Evelyn got to play with her cousins and my brother showed me some video of their recent trip to CA. They only stayed an hour or so since I had to go to work but it was nice to visit and catch up. I need to go visit my other brother before school starts, he's a teacher and coaches football so he will be very busy to say the least.

Missing out

Evelyn is getting SO big! She will be 3 at the end of September and she is a solid 37 lbs! I feel like I'm missing out, I work so much. If I'm not working or sleeping I'm with her and I cherish every second I spend with her. I work way too much but its necessary right now. I look forward to the day I can be a stay at home mom, I'd even be happy working once a week. If it is meant to be it will happen, but in the mean time its still hard. I have a scrap book I started making for her when she was born and it only has 2 pages done, I love doing stuff like that but I seriously don't have the time. Despite the divorce I still see her every day(with the exception of 2 days since may, one I was out of town the other I had a medical procedure done) but it just doesn't seem like enough, I feel like I'm missing out on the fun n loving time in her life. I need to win the lottery... but that would require actually purchasing a ticket